01.11.08
Right, So Let’s Write Then
I’ve been on an extended hiatus. Not intentionally, mind you, but life has been conspiring, conspiring I say, to make the creative process as difficult as humanly possible. Stress had begun to build as long ago as September, and by the end of October it seemed that everything had fallen apart. November was mired in a depression that managed to kill every creative instinct I had. Life has kicked me in the balls and driven off every hope that I’d managed to build in the last four years.
Or has it?
Is it just possible that I’ve had an opportunity given to me. I actually have time to do what I’ve wanted to do for a very long while. Admittedly, my lifestyle has undergone yet another downsizing, even more than it had before, and truthfully, for the most part, I’m pretty boring now, but it’s made me realize just how lean I can live. And that in turn has suggested just how do-able my dreams might be.
Twelve weddings. That’s it. Twelve weddings a year could maintain me in the manner to which I’ve newly become accustomed. Twelve. In a year. One a month. That’s do-able, right? Everything else is gravy.
And time. Time to write. Time to create. Time to work on the website (which by the way is about half redesigned).
Cursed? Or blessed? Is it a sign? Well, if it is a sign, I would have much preferred a winning lottery ticket and a phone call from the photography department of Victoria’s Secret. But who am I to judge.
I think it’s time to get busy… to treat this opportunity with the passion with which I would have greeted it had it come at a time of my choosing.
I may not have money. But I do have time.
And desire.
Tori Lennox said,
January 11, 2008 at 2:52 pm
Oh, I feel your pain (as trite as that sounds). *hugs* and hang in there!
Crystal* said,
January 11, 2008 at 4:17 pm
Ah, Bryan.
Sorry about the kick in the balls, hon.
But you’ve snagged the bottom line.
Time.
And that desire.
The desire to create. The desire to make the words come to life.
You can do it.
I know you can.
Hugs,
Crystal*
LTL said,
January 13, 2008 at 9:05 am
Well, hell, Bryan. {{{Bryan}}}
I was going to tell you what an excellent photog you are, but you know that. Hmm. You also know you’ve got the writing gene.
I was thinking this morning about ebooks, and that in the PDF, you could include pictures as well as text, for no extra charge. Graphic novels are big. Where am I going with this? No idea. Just some of that stuff in a person’s mind that seems somehow related.
We’re pulling for you.
Sheryl said,
January 15, 2008 at 5:47 pm
Book done yet?
Good luck with the photography. You certainly have the talent.
me said,
January 17, 2008 at 11:27 am
Well, if I were getting married, I would certainly call you to shoot it.
Alas and alack for both of us, that does not seem to be forthcoming. But I would defintely hire you!
Mary Stella said,
January 28, 2008 at 4:06 pm
Not only do you have time, opportunity and talent, but you also have the right attitude. You can make the most of this AND survive at the same time!
McB said,
February 6, 2008 at 2:53 pm
Hope we’ll be hearing more from you on this front.