01.11.08
Right, So Let’s Write Then
I’ve been on an extended hiatus. Not intentionally, mind you, but life has been conspiring, conspiring I say, to make the creative process as difficult as humanly possible. Stress had begun to build as long ago as September, and by the end of October it seemed that everything had fallen apart. November was mired in a depression that managed to kill every creative instinct I had. Life has kicked me in the balls and driven off every hope that I’d managed to build in the last four years.
Or has it?
Is it just possible that I’ve had an opportunity given to me. I actually have time to do what I’ve wanted to do for a very long while. Admittedly, my lifestyle has undergone yet another downsizing, even more than it had before, and truthfully, for the most part, I’m pretty boring now, but it’s made me realize just how lean I can live. And that in turn has suggested just how do-able my dreams might be.
Twelve weddings. That’s it. Twelve weddings a year could maintain me in the manner to which I’ve newly become accustomed. Twelve. In a year. One a month. That’s do-able, right? Everything else is gravy.
And time. Time to write. Time to create. Time to work on the website (which by the way is about half redesigned).
Cursed? Or blessed? Is it a sign? Well, if it is a sign, I would have much preferred a winning lottery ticket and a phone call from the photography department of Victoria’s Secret. But who am I to judge.
I think it’s time to get busy… to treat this opportunity with the passion with which I would have greeted it had it come at a time of my choosing.
I may not have money. But I do have time.
And desire.
