Epiphany

I had an epiphany this morning over my yogurt and granola. I’m actually quite smart. People respect my opinion and look to me for guidance. I know that seems like a ridiculous epiphany. I’ve always known those things. The primary difference was the epiphany was prompted by someone who is far better educated than I, with a very successful business, who runs in some swanky circles.

I tend to walk around feeling like my knowledge isn’t up to par. Friends don’t hesitate to tell me I’m wrong or offer suggestions about how I can improve my diet, my health, my relationships, my job etc etc. Admittedly I’ve set that dynamic up by constantly asking for advice in the past, always questioning my own skills or contributions. I figured out some time ago that I have a great deal more value than I give myself credit for but not everyone has caught up to that change in attitude.

It makes me wonder if I’ve missed changes in other people.  Have I seen their growth or do I continue to behave as if they are the same old person with insecurities or negative thought patterns?

We all evolve.  It’s part of life. I suppose sometimes we slip backwards as well.  But how aware are we of the evolution of those around us?

It’s not that the person who respected my opinion yesterday was special or better than my friends. I think in part it was because they don’t know me as the insecure, underconfident being who looked for answers everywhere.  Not to implie I’m self-contained and have no need for those friendships, advice or counsel.  Friendships are important. History is important.  So is listening.

I’m going to actively listen to those around me and see if perhaps I’m not the only one who has changed.  I’m thinking Bob is right. Change is extremely difficult. So is recognizing it.

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